I strongly feel that I am not a cut out for writing but I think that it must a be good way to let out the steam that has made me very closed and when I say closed I mean closed from expressing myself to myself. It doesn't makes sense, if it should have I must not have been writing this. Anyway, I am a musician if you consider a lyricist a part in this category but I do produce music too. This platform is just an online journal for me and  I intend to keep it that way . This will just be a stress reliever for me because I like the sound of keys clicking, it gives me a weird satisfaction just like popping bubble warp sheets, but that's not the only reason I am doing this...this is to keep a track one my career, my personal life and my weird brain. I don't know how to use this platform, but I felt like this will be a right thing to do as the ship sinks down in the ocean "my life" what I like call it.

I don't know whether I can write any slurs or not but just for the sake of first times- FUCK. Plus, I don't know how to use punctuations and exclamatory and all, you know what? you aren't even suppose to read this. So, it doesn't matter.

So, my day started with my dad calling me and reminding me my "sonly" duties and like as nice little son I denied , then like a  nice sweet father, he forced me to do it. PRETTY START!!!

I had my breakfast and got out of the kitchen to explore the beautiful world through my 6 feet in height and 5 feet wide window in my room, which opens to a failed 3 floored building right in front of my face with a little space in between my building and itself through which.....I can see a road and a dead dog . Its more of an I candy when you have already seen a drunken man dancing naked two nights ago. To proceed my day further, I opened my laptop and started to making some beats and wrote. I would like to describe it as a process of filling the chaos which is in my head into the pen and write the fuck up all over the page and sane myself down. I write raps btw, I am  a rapper . Today, nothing interesting happened but I felt so numb I didn't have much do to and wont even call it a waste too because, I had great time with my beautiful girlfriend, she make's it possible for me to stand my thoughts like no one else and I did something which cleared at least one doubt I had about my existence. I sacrificed something for someone really close to me and my one of my bunny brought a half eaten carrot for me when I was yelling at my sister because she ate my omlette. 

Well, that's it for today lets see what tomorrow brings.

SHIT,CUNT,ASS,FUCK

Seriously can I swear over here??